White hot molten cake and ....

I will just let you know upfront that the end of this post may be a little gross for some people so just be warned...So I went to dinner with my sweet friend Brandi last night. We went to Chilis and sat down in a booth at the end of the isle. We chatted for a few minutes and eventually pulled out the menus and right off, as if guided by laser beams my eyes spotted this "NEW MENU" item that was accompanied by a glamor shot of the featured treat. It was this white hot molten chocolate cake dessert thingy. Basically it was warm white cake with warm white chocolate sauce and a scoop of vanilla bean ice cream topped with more white chocolate sauce and drizzled with a tiny bit of tangy raspberry sauce and more white chocolate shavings on the tippy top. Probably not on the "guiltless" menu but I quickly scanned the page for those words, I held out hope but it was in vain. It literally took 2.5 seconds for my eyebrows to go all the way up to my hairline and my finger to affix to that glossy picture of goo and to look at my server and say "I will have that". I wiggled in my seat with sweet anticipation for it to get there. I think Brandi was still sitting there. I think she was saying stuff to me, I can remember seeing her mouth moving...so I am sure she was communicating something....but my attention was seriously on each tray that came out of the kitchen area and me willing my cake to come out to me. It was like I was getting something I had always wanted, but I just had to wait one more minute.... and the waiting was killing me!!!! Then...there she was, my amazing server, my new friend, she set the tray down and there it was...even better than I remembered. She reached in front of me to set the plate down and the smell from the plate was this warm sweetness that seemed so familiar yet so foreign. I have been dieting for what seemed like forever. Mamas home. Come to me. Oh, the cake was warm and chocolate was warm and sweet. I had some kind of fish thingy dinner too ...back to the cake. Oh it was amazing. I was so happy. All of a sudden I heard something that sounded like someone pouring soup on a slab of concrete and my attention is momentarily diverted from my bliss. I look down the isle to see a little boy about 8 or 9 years old and he is standing behind this puddle and he has his hand over his mouth and his head held out away from his body. His eyes were as big as saucers and they were darting back and forth. It does not take very long and before people are backing out of his way and grabbing their jackets and purses in disgust. Then he projectile vomits again. This time people just leave the restaurant in a huff. I, on the other hand say, "aw thats a shame" and immediately go back to my heavenly concoction. MMM warm chocolate. I mean I am sure he had parents somewhere...right? I was not going to let a little vomit get in between me and my cake. They could have called for an all out evacuation of the joint and I would have died there with my warm white chocolate cake. My love for a moment. Then here comes my other friend GUILT....but I will save that for another day. Pray for my weakness, my friends, as it seems all it takes to sway me from my current path of health, is a glossy picture of whipped sugar and lard. Sigh....L.

I was like Holy crap!

So I go in today for my weekly weigh-in at Weight Watchers, as most of you know I do the Core Plan with WW. I love it because I am not restricted as to the amount that I can have...ie 3 grapes is like 4 points...I just can't live that way. So I do the core and just try to eat non processed food, no bread, cupcakes are out too. Basically eating natural meats and vegatables,fruits ect...anyway so I go in today for my second weigh-in after being away since the end of October, since my Asia trip, and I was excited to see how I did for my first week...I lost 10.6 lbs...I about fell out. Seriously I am super pumped! Now I am realistic and I understand that this won't happen every week :( but I am happy with this start! Anyway I will keep yall posted on the progress! Thanks for all the prayers and support!!!! Love L.

Not much going on...

Not much going on lately. I have decided to remove myself from the internet dating pool. I am enjoying not having to get all gussied up to go meet someone who in my opinion wasn't worth the first coat of mascara. I am however excited about A Walk-a-Thon for baby Luke coming up CLICK HERE TO MAKE A DONATION!
http://www.andjonbabyluke.blogspot.com/
I will not be able to be there as I have a spiritual retreat that same weekend...I am super bummed out. But go there to check it out if you want to help them find a cure for neuromuscular diseases. I will be supporting her in prayer for sure...More later, Love yall L.

Game ON!!

Ok people I am back on the weight loss track...no sugar, no crap. Period. Brett Stalcup said one time "if it is crap, and we all know what that is, don't eat it!" So I am not. We (about 7 of us)have started a weight loss pot. Each person who wants in, gives a hundred dollars to the pot and whoever loses the most weight by percentage on June 2nd gets the pot! If you have done the math, that is a pretty good chunk of change. I am gonna win it! Since Asia I have put back on 13 lbs! That is more than a sack of potatoes! I am so disgusted but I was eating everything I could get my hands on. I am not kidding like I went to 3 drive thrus in less than 3 hours. It is a sickness I know. But I just had to have some of those cheesecake chimichangas from Taco Bueno before I signed my life back over to carrot sticks and celery stalks. I love yall and I need prayer again! Prayer for strength, will power, discipline. Oh and thank you for the comments on the man in my pics...that is beautiful Dustin, he is the sound and video guy at The Village. He is pretty huh? I have more pics coming I just have to be able to get them off this crazy disk. Love Lisa....

Asia pics cont...

Belated Asia Pictures

Heres an update...get ready....

Ok so here goes...I just got home from a "meeting" date...His name was Wade, he is six foot one, baldish white dude, with one of those off color, dark around the outside edge, off center, wrong sized caps right in the front of his mouth and as if it couldn't get worse...he had buck teeth so you can't help but stare right at his K-mart special cosmetic ( if you could call it that) dentistry work.He was wearing some kind of tennis shoes that I have never heard of...not clean either...a members only jacket, gray in color. One ring on his pinky finger, and a shiny no-name watch. He came into Starbucks and acted like he had never been in one. He walked up and shook my hand...smiled...and it was over. I heard nothing else this man had to say. Well, lets put it like this, I heard enough to know this dude was a slacker. I am completely superficial I KNOW!!! But dang dude??? Come on!! People, seriously teeth are huge for me. So maybe I was trying to look a little deeper so I let this torture go on for about 30 minutes, knowing full well that this is a guy I would not have even danced with at Red River. In this 30 minutes of hell on earth, I learned that Wade is currently unemployed and is filling out applications at Home Depot, Linens and Things, and Academy Sports and Outdoors...his hopes are really set on Academy because he loves sports!!! Well,I hope he gets his dream job. Also in the first 30 minutes I heard 3 cuss words, little ones but still. I gave him a little hug and I was on my way, smelling like his cheap cologne... so gross... I was just like dude why are you even dating? What do people think they have to offer? Are they delusional? Am I? I think I bring alot to the table...I can cook, I have a career that I have been working at for 14 years, stable, no kids, nice teeth. I don't know, I am just thinking out loud here...I think I will remove my profile for a while. Just not even interested at this point. Also since I have updated last lets see... my friend Hwa got married, it was very sweet. We had a good Christmas at Andreas moms place...food was amazing. My diet is completely off until the first of the year..we are doing this thing where everyone who wants to can put in 100.00 in the pot and whoever loses the most wieght but June 2nd gets the pot. So far we have about 7 or 8 people involved.I will still be doing Weight Watchers Core program.. This is going to be great!! Anyway I will try to update more often. Love yall. Lisa