Wednesday, November 28, 2007
an adendum to Frustrated singleness
Ok..Church pool?...I am at the wrong church for that...no dating pool for me there, either way too young or way too old...I have heard of great singles departments that are full of singles my age at other churches in the area..sounds great right? It would be but I am not willing to leave my church...I feel blessed to be under Matts teaching and I am just not willing to leave, especially for that reason... I am not sure if I am more frustrated by the lack of intelligence that seems to be out there or by the fact that I am apparently way too smart. Don't roll your eyes just yet, I am really really smart and alot of times that is a hinderance. Especially in dating... I am not talking about spelling or mathematical genius here but I am talking just about being on the ball, a decent conversationalist, seeing the depth of person pretty quickly, picking up on the little things. I want someone who can hang with me. It is so hard to find because usually those guys are in a different "class" and pretty much out of my league. I am just speaking the facts here! I am deeply deeply frustrated. I see really stupid HAPPY people all the time. They are everywhere. " Ignorance is bliss" or is it??? Would I rather look at someone blindly and accept them for what they "appear" to be and be happy or look at someone with skepticism and dig for what they are not saying and search for the depth or lack of and continue to be disappointed when I don't find what I am looking for, and feeling even more frustrated because I wasted my time trying to find something that was just not there to begin with. I don't know. Anyway...that is where I am right now. So I keep praying for my hearts desire but did God create anyone who fits that bill?? I mean realistically...maybe not. I am not sure where I stand on that...so I keep praying for what may or may not be realistic, maybe I am the stupid one??? We will see. L.