Friday, July 20, 2007

My weeds....

Today was another tough day at the shop, a friendship died. I had this"friend" who I have poured into for a long long time. I have been there through thick and thin, literally sickness and health. I always felt this need to walk lightly with her, as she had revealed in the past a very short temper. She admitted that she had a problem but had grown as she got older. The past few weeks she has been getting little digs in here and there about my praying for people, just kind of snide remarks about me in general..."my friend" it seems had an issue. So I began to ask questions trying to figure out want I have done to initiate this. I got nothin'.She would act as if everything was fine. We went out to eat, nothin', hung out, nothin'. I really had chalked it up to maybe she was having a bad day...that was until today... Several of us were sitting outside enjoying the rain cooled air, in between clients. One of the girls had mentioned she liked this mood fingernail polish....chit chat for a minute about that..back and forth..blahblah...I asked if you( no one directly) are in a bad mood will it (the mood polish) turn black. She said you better shut up before you cursed out... I at this time was like, right, for what reason would I get cursed out? And she totally went off on me . Dropping F bombs and my all time (and she knows it) most hated curse word GD. She was in my face on her feet angry...really angry, so I stayed seated and simply kept repeating what are you mad at? What is the problem? I got nothing but a facefull of cuss words..and insults about my faith..and personal insults as well,but nothing about what set her off. I still don't know. I guess what hurts the most is the cussing in my face with no explanation. This was someone who I have ran with for the last few years...someone I see or talk to almost everyday, ate lunch with, I have been to her church and she to mine, birthdays, dinners. I feel really let down. Disappointed. The more I think about it, that friendship is/was very one sided...always her thick my thin ...her sickness my health... I never have had to really lean on her and by her actions not only today but the last few weeks, I think I would have fallen if I had. God has a way of pulling the weeds from your garden. I will continue to pray for her heart if you made it to the end of this would you please pray for both of us to heal from this. Thank L.

6 comments:

Jonathan, Andrea and Luke said...

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8
A time to plant and a time to uproot what is planted.
Love you sweetie. You are beautiful.

ericka said...

Oh girl, I'm sorry! That sounds like quite a conflict you had today... will pray for healing and forgiveness for you both. Love you.

The Waters Family said...

I'm so sorry Lisa--I know you probably replay the events in your mind trying to fathom it all--this is just awful to have a "friend" show her true colors. I'll pray for healing and peace in your hearts!

Lisa Allen said...

Thats right Deb you said it "true colors", Maya Angelou said one time " When someone shows you who they REALLY are, believe them!" I am a forgiving person but a fast learner.

ericka said...

I think it's funny how you and Penny's blog pics are in front of the same flowers ;)

The Nicholsons said...

I'm sorry girl...that is tough!
It was so good to see you this weekend! What a blessing to get to TA with you. Love you! - Luci